Sharing Secrets and Plotting Plans

[Miki]

Alec

I didn't get very far before Bhuvana was suddenly in front of me, blocking my path. I frowned as I studied her broad smile but there was a different emotion in her eyes. One that was more somber than the playful face she put on.

I listened to her with a scowl on my face. If I tried to be nice about this departure, it would be harder for her. The mean facade would make this harder for me though, I would hurt her, but it was better this way.

"Bhuvana." I started, my voice gruff. "Bhuvana, I'm not meant for this. I'm an ocelot, we're supposed to be loners. This," I nodded towards the Peace Leaders, just out of earshot, "It isn't natural. I was fine living on my own before, I can do it again. But you have work to do, you're needed."

It broke my heart to say that, especially if I knew it wasn't necessarily true about me being fine on my own. As unnatural as it was, I was getting used to being part of a group. I would feel as lonely as ever as soon as I got out of here.

My head had dropped a little in my thoughts, and slowly I looked back up at Bhuvana, my sweet friend, Bhu. "Good-bye, Bhuvana." I said, my voice colder than I had expected and much more formal. It was better this way, I reminded myself yet again. A cold separation would be easier.

[Bhu]

I could see the agitation play his face, and perhaps even some dismay. My smile would hide any negativity I was feeling from the view of my fellow Peace Leaders. But his words killed any reason to keep the joy, having it be replaced by first sorrow, and then anger. "Whatever you ass. I thought you were someone different, but I was wrong. I don't give a damn what our instincts say, if you want me gone, just tell me. You wouldn't be the first, and you sure as Hell wouldn't the the last. Go." With those words said in a loud and furied tone, I purposly shoved past him, hoping for a second that I would knock him off his paws. With grace, I bounded not to my friends, but to a nearby tree and scampered up.

I couldn't allow everyone to see the tears that now streamed down my face, nor uncover the pain that glowed in my usually happy eyes. Everyone was the same, I concluded. There wasn't a soul who wouldn't leave. I had thought--prayed--Alec was different, but I'd been wrong. He'd given me a temporary high, and now my drug was walking away. I'd crash, just as I had in the past, except this time I had farther to fall. Alia's next. What'll be her excuse for leaving me?

[Miki]

Ooc//: Aww....I want to cry, but Alec's such a butthead....don't worry, he'll come back eventually. But poor Bhuvana...

Alia

I watched as Bhuvana ran to catch up with Alec, but from where I stood I couldn't hear what they were talking about. I wasn't even close enough to get a feel of their emotions. All I could see was Bhuvana's smiling face, but Alec's back was turned to me. There was no way to tell what was happening.

Giving up on trying to decipher the ongoing dilemna, I turned back to Taj and Anabi. I smiled at them briefly, as if apologizing for this sudden distraction. "Well..." I began, trying to find something to talk about to fill this void of silence.

"Go."

[/i] I blinked in surprise, the voice loud enough for us to hear. I turned to look back at the ocelot's but Bhuvana was shoving past Alec. Instead of coming back to us though, she turned and ran towards a nearby tree. I looked at Alec questioningly, but the young male was walking away, without a glance at what he was leaving behind. What was his problem?

Forget him, a voice advised me in my head, though it wasn't my own. I found myself agreeing, even though I had been fond of Alec. I bit my lip, looking back at the other Peace Leaders. "I'm sorry, you guys. Why don't you find a nice, private spot for us to talk. It's kind of open around here and we don't want any of the prides to see us. I'll go get Bhu."

Without leaving room for proclamation I took a few bounds towards the tree and climbed up on the tree limb with ease. I realized even if Taj or Anabi wanted to talk with her, their species weren't fit to climb trees.

My eyes softened as I turned them on the young ocelot. Her back was to me, so I couldn't read the expression on her face. Softly, I padded a little closer and crouched down on the tree limb. "Bhuvana? Do you want to talk?"[/color]

Alec

Her words stung, but I knew now she'd let me go. And she did. I flinched at her words, but I said or did nothing. As soon as she dismissed me, she shoved by and I nearly lost my balance. I caught myself in time, and took a deep breath to steady myself. Physically and emotionally.

My eyes burned as I fought back tears that threatened to spill. I didn't know it would hurt this much. The last time I had felt a sorrow so deep was when I had lost my mother. And now I had lost Bhuvana.

I began to walk, and this time I knew I wouldn't be stopped. I was free, but I didn't like the feeling of it. It was back to the old me, the carefree, leisurely lifestyle I had had. But there was no joy, and I knew it would no longer be carefree. My cares were over at least two cats behind me. And leisure? Who was I kidding? Life was tough.[/size][/blockquote]

[Bhu]

OOC//: Sorry, Lapara and Moon. Drama is fun to RP and this whole Bhuvana vs Alec thing has me squirming in my seat

Bhuvana
Dio, find someone else. I am no Peace Leader. Peace Leader's hold joy, despite the darkest turns. They're a flashlight to the world until the sun finally rises again. I am neither of these things, nor do I desire to be. I want to live my life. I knew my prayer went deeper, and my great god would read the hidden words. It was not my life I wished to lead that kept me from holding firm in my Peace Leader duties. If not for this responsibility I held for the Almighty Dio, I would follow Alec, beat him senseless, and that would leave me calm enough to forgive him. That was how I used to work. If words didn't work quick and easy, I'd resort to a mild lash, perhaps a hard blow or two, a single tail bite. That'd be revenge enough, and we would put it behind us. But I couldn't do that anymore. Fight only when one's life is in danger.

"Bhuvana? Do you want to talk?"

I was so distracted with my prayer, both concious and subconcious, I failed to be alerted to Alia joining my branch. In silence I sat for a long few seconds, seemed to be hours. My back was facing her and my breathing was ragged from the tears I'd spilled. Talk? No, go away. Leave now. I am giving you an excuse. You can't handle me. I wanted to free my dear Alia so she wouldn't be forced to stab me like Alec had done, but my heart clung to her. Though my will was strong, my sense of love was stronger. I wouldn't push her away. I'd keep her here as long as possible, no matter how much pain it caused in the end.

"There's nothing to talk about. He's gone. He was no different then everyone else." I turned, hiding away the pain and holding a blank stare. For a split second, I stared at Alia's face, urged myself to wail my sorrow to her. But I was quick to regain myself, lock away the negative emotions. A small smile was played across my expression, though it was tight an obviously forced. Realizing this, I blinked once, leaped agily over the leopardess, and started down the tree. "Like the male told me, we have work to do. I'm needed. So let's get cracking." And then I was planted on the ground, making my way leisurly over to the tiger and lioness.

Speak only when spoken to, this way no bonds are made.